First I would like to start off by saying Happy New Year everyone. Are you ready to make 2017 the best year yet? I sure am and for that reason I went out on New Year's Eve with a girl friend to celebrate and bring in 2017 with a bang.
Funny thing is though I look much younger than I am, I look really healthy and strong and fit, but my body isn't always capable of living up to my looks so much these days. What I mean by that is, even though I went out for New Year's Eve and danced for part of the night, in between dancing there was much sitting and resting. Rubbing the knots out of my knees and elbows and keeping the chill at bay. I felt cold even though others did not.
(Yes this is a pic of my hometown fireworks)
At 35 years old looking ten years younger can be confounding to those on the outside seeing me. I look young, vibrant, and healthy, and though I am those things at times, I am not just those things alone. I am still dealing with pain and get fatigued easily. Even though I danced as much as I felt I could, my mind certainly felt like doing much more, but I had to listen to my body and listen I did. So I had many moments where I chose to sit it out. Therefore a cute guy (who turned out to be eleven years my junior) who really wanted to dance with me more, could not understand why I would not. I was honest and told him why. He was more shocked by my age than anything. He thought I was 22, (which is the age I get most when people guess.) Then when I told him I was much older than that, he thought perhaps I was 26 at most. Well the truth is, though I look that young, I am not as young as you think, and it's not just my age that is getting to me, I have Lyme disease and symptoms that still effect me now and then. My body is effected and I must take breaks and rest in between anything I do anymore and that includes dancing at a New Year's Eve party.
The party was great. They had two rooms, one with a live band and the other with a DJ. It felt so good to get dressed up and go out. It has been years since I have done that for New Year's, so it was a gift to have done it this time. My girl friend and I danced, laughed, talked, and hugged. It was a great way to end one year and bring on the next. I don't drink anymore so it was water for me all night and that was totally ok too. I don't make excuses for myself or try to make myself out to be something I am not, despite how it may "look" on the surface. I am completely honest when people ask the questions "why aren't you drinking," "why wont you dance with me again" why this and why that.
This is why, I am 35 years old, healing and recovering from Lyme disease, which causes me a lot of pain sometimes, it causes me to feel tired and fatigued easily, my body doesn't metabolize alcohol anymore, I want to take care of my body and do what is best for it, and that means listening to it when it needs rest or just plain water. Yet I still want to have a life and enjoy it as much as I can in ways that work best for me and my condition.
This is me, this is part of who I am now. It doesn't make it bad or wrong, just because it's different from what others see on the surface doesn't mean it's something I should hide or even be ashamed of. I own it, I own this life and everything that has come with it for my journey this time around and all of this is part of that. I wouldn't change it for the world, because I love who I am, the woman I have become, and I wouldn't be me if this wasn't a part of me.
Everything that happens to us in this life is a blessing.
Be open to the blessings and the lessons from them.
That is where your true glory lies.
Blessings beautiful souls.
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